Daily Thoughts

Today is World Bipolar Day.


World Bipolar Day is today. I myself struggle with Bipolar 2 in addition to my Cerebral Palsy. I have some friends who also do. I was shocked as soon as I discovered I was Bipolar, and it was some time before I had to admit that I am suffering from mental health difficulties. It’s hard on me dealing with each of them. Sometimes I have brain fog, making me not fully function, causing me to want to sleep, yet I canโ€™t, so I watch TV and color. 

How does one get Bipolar?

  Factors that may increase the risk of developing bipolar disorder or act as a trigger for the first episode include: Having a first-degree relative, such as a parent or sibling, with bipolar disorder. Periods of high stress, such as the death of a loved one or other traumatic event. Drug or alcohol abuse.

Periods of high stress, such as the death of a loved one or other traumatic event. Me, that’s how I believe that I got bipolar.

I know my triggers like hate load noises and on and on. Somedays, I just feel like going nuts. I have some self-hate and blame myself. All I do is live my life day by day, praying to god I wonโ€™t get worst.  

In addition to being an advocate for cerebral palsy and disability, I am also a #mentalhealthadvocat your #mentalhealthmatters, so I encourage anyone to deal with a #mentalhealthcrisis. Please #seekhelp! Don’t be afraid to speak up; donโ€™t let fear of the stigma surrounding #mentalillness stop you from finding help!! #mentalhealthawareness #endthestigma #itsokaynottobeokay #mentalhealth #WorldBipolarDay #12monthstonationals 

This is Amanda F.

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March is CP Awareness Month


“She means to take on the world, make it a better place. And if that means doing it from a different perspective, then – by God – that is what she will do.” -Sean Mearns Founder/Administrator at Care for Rares

CP Fact #6: With the appropriate services and support, children and adults with CP can stay well, active, and a part of the community.
Amanda is not only an active part of her community, but is making strides to educate the world! She is the author of the book “Living Strong with Cerebral Palsy,” a novel showing the struggles of a young woman finding her voice and building her self esteem while facing the struggles – and celebrating the victories – of cerebral palsy. Amanda has also adapted the book into a book for young children, so that they can enjoy it, as well. Partnering with the group CP Dream Team, Amanda gave away eBook copies of her book to anyone who ordered a shirt from them for the 2021 National Cerebral Palsy Awareness Day. Amanda has a passion for helping others, and her desire is to advocate for all individuals with severe disabilities.

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Getting to know me as CP Gal 100 Q’s and A’s


“Getting to know you; Getting to know all about you,
Getting to like you; Getting to hope you like me.”

In order to spread awareness for Cerebral Palsy, I’ve been wanting to do a getting to know you questions and answers post blog on my life living with Cerebral Palsy, as a disability advocate, CP Gal and a Adult Multi-Genre Author thought, my unique outlook on the world throw my eyes. I had answer 100 questions, being Real 100% myself. Showing and teaching others to look at me as a another human bean that has a illness.

  1. Who is your hero? Helen Keller for many reasons.
  2. If you could live anywhere, where would it be? Living in a beach condos complex with all of the hotel amenities.
  3. What is your biggest fear? Having no family at the end of my life. Living a home.
  4. What is your favorite family vacation? 2019- Buffalo New York or my 2005 Yellowstone, Jackson Hole, and Mt. Rushmore trip.
  5. What would you change about yourself if you could? My very bad temper.
  6. What really makes you angry? when people talk to me like I’m a baby- when I am 30 years old. One gold of mine; Is to teach people that I have CP yet, I’m just like anyone else.
  7. What motivates you to work hard? My disability advocate, being a voice for others.
  8. What is your favorite thing about your career? The book review I enjoy the most seeing if some point out the message that I put into my book.
  9. What is your biggest complaint about your job? No money since everyone can write a book now.
  10. What is your proudest accomplishment? I have to go with the standing ovation that I got at the Washington DC Author Dinner Group.
  11. What makes you laugh the most? Dirty jokes.
  12. What was the last movie you went to? What did you think? 52 pick-up (1986) and thank god it wasn’t on when I was a teen since John Glover was my teenage heartthrob so I had to watch all his movies but this one and I’m going to say I am happy that my 16-year-old self didn’t saw it until age 30.
  13. What did you want to be when you were small? A teacher.
  14. If you could choose to do anything for a day, what would it be? Shopping with unlimited cash in my pocket.
  15. What is your favorite game or sport to watch and play? I’m more of an artiest gal than a sports fan.
  16. Would you rather ride a bike, ride a horse, or drive a car? None of those- I love walking in my woods or my old down town.
  17. What would you sing at Karaoke night? whatever is cool with me, by the way, when is Karaoke night?
  18. What two radio stations do you listen to the most? 70’s hit’s and 2000’s hits!
  19. If you could hire someone to help you, would it be with cleaning, cooking, or yard work? All of the above since to my Cerebral Palsy.
  20. If you could only eat one meal for the rest of your life, what would it be? Potato, apples, and a type of meat.
  21. Who is your favorite author? So many great minds to just pick just only one.
  22. Have you ever had a nickname? What is it? Yes, so many nicknames I have gotten over these 30 years. I love giving a nickname to everyone and everything! don’t mind my oddness.
  23. Do you like or dislike surprises? Why or why not? I shall say when someone does surprise me.
  24. In the evening, would you rather play a game, visit a relative, watch a movie, or read? Relax with a good movie!
  25. Would you rather vacation in Hawaii or Alaska, and why? Why do I need to pick one, when I want to go to each of them in my lifetime?
  26. Would you rather win the lottery or work at the perfect job? The perfect Job, I go NUTS if I have nothing to look forward to or a deadline to meet.
  27. Who would you want to be stranded with on a deserted island? I’m taking the fifth on this question. I shall keep a little mystery to myself! ๐Ÿ˜›
  28. If money was no object, what would you do all day? To work on things for the greater good for all people with a disability and still write my stories.
  29. If you could go back in time, what year would you travel to? I always had thought about going be in the time… To when Jesus of Nazareth walks this earth.
  30. How would your friends describe you? Ask them and not me… I hope they will tell you kinds of nice things about me.
  31. What are your hobbies? Writing, swimming, making up stories in my head, walking, dancing, on, and on. It’s would be a much bigger list to add all my hobbies.
  32. What is the best gift you have been given? The necklaces that my grandma gave me on my 24th birthday.
  33. What is the worst gift you have received? I chose to not tell.
  34. Aside from necessities, what one thing could you not go a day without? The internet!!!
  35. List two pet peeves. When people pity me and when someone treats me like a little kid, like why I’m 30.
  36. Where do you see yourself in five years? All I know everything happens for an unknowable reason. A year ago I won’t believe how much different Covid19 had changed that much.
  37. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Don’t even know! That’s a woman for you
  38. If you were a spur-hero, what powers would you have? Mind-reading, being fast and flying. That would be sweet!
  39. What would you do if you won the lottery? My winning will be donated to help find a cure for Cerebral Palsy.
  40. What form of public transportation do you prefer? (air, boat, train, bus, car, etc.) Airplane, I love being able to fly on my own, not to add being VIP at the airports, way fun.
  41. What’s your favorite zoo animal? Gorillas. I just love them.
  42. If you could go back in time to change one thing, what would it be? To not have that sleepover with that old woman.
  43. If you could share a meal with any 4 individuals, living or dead, who would they be? Dinner with Robert De Niro, Sigourney weaver one night, and the next night, my birth-father and God-Grandpa Rocky talking to them all night long.
  44. How many pillows do you sleep with? 3!
  45. What’s the longest you’ve gone without sleep? Over 24 hours and a full day.
  46. What’s the tallest building you’ve been to the top in? I can’t think of one off the top of my head now.
  47. Would you rather trade intelligence for looks or looks for intelligence? I really have no answer to this question. Love people just the way they are.
  48. How often do you buy clothes? Whenever the mood bit me. LOL!
  49. Have you ever had a secret admirer? Yes, I did. That’s all I can tell you.
  50. What’s your favorite holiday? Going with Easter.
  51. What’s the most daring thing you’ve ever done? Wrote my whole life story, tell all for people to read, Cerebral Palsy Gal.
  52. What was the last thing you recorded on TV? I’ve downloaded Hamilton off of Disney+ dose that count?
  53. What was the last book you read? I don’t know really need to make a plan to start reading. It’s had to find time to just sit and read.
  54. What’s your favorite type of foreign food? Hands down, Mexican.
  55. Are you a clean or messy person? let’s say I’m haft-and-haft when it comes done to it.
  56. Who would you want to play you in a movie of your life? Hmm, I been thinking that Jennifer Lawrence or Amanda Seyfried can portray me and my Cerebral Palsy, pretty good.
  57. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? it’s all depends on my day. I’m not a woman that wears any make-up. I want to grow older with grace.
  58. What kitchen appliance do you use every day? Spoon and Fork, since I can’t cook.
  59. What’s your favorite fast-food chain? In-N-Out Burger, yet you can only find one in California, Nevada, and Arizona in a few cities. Bummer I can go for one now.
  60. What’s your favorite family recipe? My Grandma’s Forry’s potato and cabbage mix that we all call Guppy.
  61. Do you love or hate rollercoasters? No HATE them.
  62. What’s your favorite family tradition? Hard to say now without becoming sad.
  63. What is your favorite childhood memory? Going camping with my Girl Scout’s troop- I have to say.
  64. What’s your favorite movie? No brainer; Casino (1995)
  65. How old were you when you learned Santa wasn’t real? At age 9 I think, my mom just told me in the car, I can’t seem to remember how I felt about it.
  66. Is your glass half-full or half-empty? It’s empty now, need a re-fill hold on.
  67. What’s the craziest thing youโ€™ve done in the name of love? Just wait until you read CP Gal 2.0 to find out.
  68. What three items would you take with you on a deserted island? Hard to say… past on this.
  69. What was your favorite subject in school? Ah, History! I am a hands-on learner.
  70. What’s the most unusual thing you’ve ever eaten? Going with eating sea squid at my big 25 birthday party. Just want to be cool at my own party, since everyone was eating it. Turn out that I love it.
  71. Do you collect anything? To said now no, yet in the past I have.
  72. Is there anything you wished would come back into fashion? None that I can think of.
  73. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? Depend on my mood. I know one thing I just hate; being all alone with no one to talk to.
  74. Which of the five senses would you say is your strongest? I’m going with smell for this on.
  75. Have you ever had a surprise party? (that was an actual surprise) Nope, can say that I have.
  76. Are you related or distantly related to anyone famous? I’m a direct descendant of Lady Godiva from my mother’s father’s side.
  77. What do you do to keep fit? Walking and swimming.
  78. Does your family have a โ€œmottoโ€ โ€“ spoken or unspoken? It’s your thing do what you want to because it’s your thing!
  79. If you were ruler of your own country what would be the first law you would introduce? Everyone will be teared the same, equity.
  80. Who was your favorite teacher in school and why? Ms. Santana and why, she was the only one that really taught me. We’re still in touch.
  81. What three things do you think of the most each day? My three things are coffee with my friend, working to build a better further. Movie time with my Dad.
  82. If you had a warning label, what would yours say? WARNING THIS GAL CAN BE YOU NEXT BEST FRIEND IF YOU CAN SEE PASS HER CEREBRAL PALSY. IF YOU CAN’T PLEASE LEAVE HER BE. yup that’s label fits me.
  83. What song would you say best sums you up? I’m going with this one; Eyes Open by Taylor Swift.
  84. What celebrity would you like to meet at Starbucks for a cup of coffee? It’s hard to say. Let me think… Shia Labeouf
  85. Who was your first crush? On a boy that 1st grade that I kiss him and knocked his tooth out. I was in hot water after that!
  86. What’s the most interesting thing you can see out of your office or kitchen window? A lovey flower garden that we made as a family.
  87. On a scale of 1-10 how funny would you say you are? I love to think that my friends shall rate me as an 9 and and half on the funny scale! LOL!
  88. Where do you see yourself in 10 years? safe and secure, happy, healthy, family. The rest will unfold as I go. I do wonder what next yet I know by now I cant say what or where I be age 40 that’s what make life worth living good or bad.
  89. What was your first job? Filer for my birth-parents shop and boy I had hated it.
  90. If you could join any past or current music group which would you want to join? Arvil Lavinge all the way. since it’s there not any all girl’s music groups that speck to my souls.
  91. How many languages do you speak? Only one, because I have a HARD time speaking my own language. Yet I trying to learn Russian because my adopted mother is Russian.
  92. What is your favorite family holiday tradition? making out my Christmas Cards.
  93. Who is the most intelligent person you know? Hands down my dad Ronald Fino, what a live that he had lead.
  94. If you had to describe yourself as an animal? A gorilla.
  95. What is one thing you will never do again? Online dating. No thanks never ever anging.
  96. Who knows you the best? My grandma Alexander knows me the very best since she knew me since the moment that I pop out of the womb, over 30 years ago.
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World’s Mental Health Day “I’m here for you!”


I always had believe that Cerebral Palsy should be mental health disorders list. Why isn’t it?

Amanda Fino

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#metoo, my story


I do have to warn the reader that this blog post contains possibly trigger warnings about the topics of sexual assault, mental and physical abuse that if you are someone with a history of any of these experiences please read with caution. Or with guided supervision from your trusted.

Myself during the mist of it all -fall 2008

Knowing that I should have come out and come clean with this years ago. Perhaps I was scared for some other reason. Today on June 21, 2020, I shall tell the truth of Ms. Barbara Humbert and that she had indeed molested me, and I want the world to know in hopes of stopping her and others that molested children with a disability.


My parents Mark and Sheri Forry hired my momโ€™s dear friend, Gail, to work at our family Auto Body Connection, helping my mom out. She had a sister named Barbara, who was in her 70s. Barbara had a married daughter with a significant handicap: born with no arms or legs and a wheelchair user. My mom Sheri and Gail thought that Barbara and I would become good friends since I had no friends. My Mom let Barbara take me out to the movies, lunches and such.

April 18, 2008. I only had a sleepover once at Barbara’s house. It turned out that night was the worst night of my life because she did some unspeakable things to me just 11 days after I turned eighteen. Barbara had raped me that night. Barbara watched me naked the whole time while I took a bath in her huge bathtub taking pictures of me in the nude. After that, Barbara wrapped me in a bath towel, hugging me way too close, kissing my neck, and drying me off. I felt odd about this. Later that night, we were hanging out on the bed when Barbara started to kiss my feet and asked me if I slept naked.

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Since that night, my world turned to the very worst hell I could imagine mentally abused me every time we were alone. Barbara used to drive me to and from my very first college class. It was pure torture getting into her truck. I remember one-day grandma was at my house when Barbara came to pick me up, and I tried to get into my grandma’s car, but it was locked, and I was crying when I got into Barbara’s truck. I won’t tell no one about that night because my parents needed Gailโ€™s help at their shop.

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I underwent emotional/mental/physical abuse by my own family because I came to hate Barbara and didn’t know that rape can comes in all kinds of forms. I claim that given my condition and how isolated when young- being homeschool, friendliness, made me still a child in my mind. It wasn’t until I told a counselor, years later, August 2010, about that night in question, then this counselor told me that Barbara had raped me. My family did believe me, and there was peace in our home for three months until we found out that my dad was dying of pancreatic cancer stage 4. I did not just lose my father to cancer. I lost my mother, Sheri, and my little sister, Hailey to Barbara. Christmas 2015, my mom and sister spent Christmas with Barbara over me. I was left home alone.

Years later, in 2020, I came to realize how much Barbara took away all my hopes, dreams, and, sadly, my whole family. Facing that fact, in which she indeed really wrack all aspects of my life. It’s still affecting my life. I hope that I was the only one that Barbara Humbert had raped because living with this is far worst that one could even be imaged.

Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Amanda Forry/Fino

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Life UPDATE


I am worried but I am trying to remain cool, clam, and upbeat. Last Friday was truly my Friday the 13th, sinceย My Graduation Ceremony was call off, shall be on a later date. Seven 7 people has it in my county/ Looking like I has good change of getting it yet, I’m keeping the FAITH and all will be fine in his GRACES. I’m sad to say there was a death in my town. Yet, we are hoping for the best for the rest of the community.

Having nothing to do I hope to be on here more. Until next time, love & light!!!~

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Hello 2020


Good Day lovely faces welcome to the 1st of 2020, a brand new decade!! โ˜ƒ๏ธ๐ŸŽ†๐Ÿฅณ Your new copy CP Gal Reader Nest Newsletter is out and in your in-box just to read with your cup of coffee or your g!!!~ ๐Ÿ“ฐ๐Ÿ—žโ˜•

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Well I guessed its life for you


Do one ever wounder who is really on the other end of your Keyboard?

I came to wonder that right now, while I reflect on this quote that I came across as I google how I was feeling. It’s a sad day involved in the Cerebral Palsy community for me. “We fear our enemy, but the bigger and real fear is that of a fake friend who is sweetest to your face and most vile behind your back.” -Mufti Ismail Menk

Today is one those days that I am hurting, and I am guilty as well too. Yet I wonder where the proof of my mistake, am I guilty? Is this one of those big mysteries that will haunt me, keeping me up at night years from now? I spent all day with a heavy heart re-read the past text and new emailing telling how shittily I am, and I even did a power-point timeline only to end up with no clue on why this happened. Jessica (my long-time BFF) who went to college to be a social worker scratched her head with wonder and told me that I did nothing this bad to case all of this. I don’t fully understand what I said that was so evil to have two of my CP friends block me after yelling at me for how much that I have hurt this person.

Right here, this is what went down. It’s like person ONE said in a text that person TWO was something and all I text back to said: “Yeah, she does that sometimes, what can I do?” God, you must think I said something that would make the devil proud, but I swear on my life that I did not. Having Cerebral Palsy, my speech impediment is so hard to pick up a phone and vent to a friend. No one really can understand me even when I am upset or sad. That makes texting, Facebook Messenger, and Email so much easier to chat and to vent. A few weeks ago, I vented to the wrong ear and when she told that person what I TOLD HER. All because she wants me to teach me a lesson like WHY come on, I was talking to you venting off as you do to me.

Waking up at 3 am to the same person yelling at me for something that I never said to our other friend. Like alright, let’s try to see why this other friend would even hurt me after swore that she would never hurt me, and she emailed me with this. So I know I hurt you but did my best to mentor you, but I can’t do it anymore. What!? Wait a second I didn’t even ever ask this person to mentor me, because my dad is my mentor. I am very, very hurt from this, and I need time to heal, but you can’t keep this CP Gal down.

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Christmas 2019


It’s super awesome that my autobiography just came out at my favorite time of the year! Wishing you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year! It has been a wonderful year and I look forward to an even better one in 2020! ๐ŸŽ„๐ŸŽ…๐Ÿคถ Wishing you a warm Merry Christmas with love. ๐ŸŽ…๐Ÿคถ๐Ÿ””๐Ÿ›ท๐Ÿ•ฏ๏ธ๐ŸŽ๐ŸฆŒ๐ŸŽ„๐ŸŒŸ๐Ÿ‘ผโ›ชโœ๏ธโ„๏ธโ˜ƒ๏ธ๐Ÿงธ๐Ÿ›๏ธ๐ŸŽ